LET"S DRINK TO THAT....

When i'm in my thinking mode just like now because i can feel my the world spinning around me since i am a little bit drunk due to hurricane this drink that we bought from a liquor store. This usually happens i act on my impulsive side and taht is my thinking mode. As of writing the world around me is spinning and i would like to remember this day for some reason. I know it's bad to expect thing from people but then how could i help it when i expect soemthing good about a person to act mature and to know better but then when they turns you down and make an act you're not expecting them to doi it just pisse you off just like i am right now.... ewan ko siguro i'm just used to being a good girl after all being good and all... yun lang! basta as of writing this piece i am DRUNK.... hahahahahahahaha........

ROSES ARE RED

Lately my Ney has been buying me roses and i do appreciate the thought but it's really not his style to be romantic for he is not the romantic type. For some reason i do accept the fact that he is not and i do appreciate him for who he is. This is how it usually happens we go to pathmark and we pass by the flower/plant section as we go on our way to the vegetable section and i just looked at the flowers, he notices it and then says would you like to buy the flowers. Then i would reply it's up to you but deep down i do want it. Then i would tell him that's not a question to ask me about and still he would ask me but buy me flowers anyway.

I love the fact that he knows what i like and the way he knows me very well makes me feel good inside. I'm so thankful for everything i have right now and though i still wished for something else i can say that i feel secured already.

Oh well enjoy your weekend everyone!

THE FORBIDDEN KISS (back then)

June 4, 2006 I was invited together with my cousin Kuya JV for our other cousins dinner party at LUA restaurant in Hoboken, New Jersey. Prior to that occassion i have been exchanging emails with an old friend (let me call him Doc Ryan for everyone who doesn't know him) since what had happened to my nephew Lance and he was the one who helped with my nephew's situation. Anyway since then we've been emailing each other, asking about the dinner party and all i get is a confusing answer. It was sort of exciting and at the same time feeling old memories back then but then i have my IaN so everything has changed since then. The feelings for Doc Ryan has been dormant and might not be the same if we see each other again. But deep down i have a feeling that i would see him on this particular occassion.

When we got to the restaurant, i immediately look for him hoping that i got there first before he did, why? for the simple reason that i would want to be ready when i see him. It's been what 3 years since i last saw him or even talked to him. I had to cut everything off between us since I had to avoid that certain situation cause I know for sure that we could have been more than friends if I continue to do so. So there was i talking with my friends and cousins. When i saw him walking towards the entrance outside. I pretended that I didn't see him but then my friends saw him and they started to tease me about it. I was like "Okay he's here." kind of not so surprised about him being there when i knew from the start that he could be there. The moment i did finally said hi was when i went to the bar to get my cousin a drink and i mumbled "hey you!" and he greets me back as well. We said a couple of hi and hello mentioning about the email then i told him i have to go back to the table.

All through out dinner we weren't given the chance to talk like old friends but then when i volunteered to take the video cam and took videos of everyone i was able to talk to him for a while. He asked why id idn't gave him my cellphone number and out of friendship i gave him my number that night. Then all through out the night we kept exchanging text messages. It was nice seeing doc ryan again but this time it's different it's more of friendship than anything else. The last text i got from him before he left the restaurant was "When will you call me?" which by the way made me smile. I did bid him goodbye with a hug and he kissed me on the cheek.

Oh well i think i've said enough for now and i do think i've had enough coffee for now...

MEMORIAL WEEKEND AT MARGARETVILLE, NY

First photo was taken at Belleayre Mountain, we were supposed to ride on the chair lift but then it was closed due to memorial day, look at the nice view. 2nd photo still at Belleayre Mountain just enjoying the magnificent view. 3rd photo my cute nephew Lance swimming in the river, he loves the water. 4th photo Fishing, fishing anyone? My NeY trying to show off his skills. 5th photo My cousin Kuya JV and my NeY Ian fishing while Lance enjoying the water and with mom Mel.