S.H.E. - zen me ban (hana kimi OST)

Remember the tsinovela i was writing about. So here's the official soundtrack. Look at Wu Zun (the guy) he's so cute! I think the video is cute too!

COURAGE TO LOVE

"It is but a shadow and a thought that you love. I cannot give you what you seek. " Aragorn (Lord of the Rings: Return of the King)

I guess i've been watching too much LOTR trilogy that's why i just had to use this favorite line of mine. It's been a while since i last wrote something that i had in mind. Well uit just occured to me that life is too short to waste all my energy on something negative so that's why i'm writing something positive and well from my heart.

Lately i've been watching Taiwanese drama and the titlwe is Smiling Pasta. It's sort of like Full House, the korean drama i used to watch and a little of Lavender too. The main actor reminds me so much of Chester Lasquety (a classmate of mine back in college though in real life he is taller than the actor.) Anyways the drama is good although the actress' character is sort of dumb in a way that is cute. It's actually a light tsinovela and after watching it i usually feel good. For some reason it just makes my heart jump for a while. In watching this i learned that the main actress' character has chosen to show the courage to love for her love interest and it's fun to watch how their love truly unfolds. For most of the episodes they're like cat and dog always having petty fights that seems to spices up their relationship. Which coincidentally reminds me of a good friend and teacher from college. We usually talks about her relationship and how they usually fights over non-sense things but deep down they truly love each other. Funny how simple life is and how people try to make things interesting and complicated at times.

I did found another Japanese tsinovela and well the story was okay but the ending was disappointing for me since I have to think of how it really ends. I don't really enjoy doing that to amke my own ending for a movie or either tv series. I'd rather watch how it really ends may it be happy or sad. Anyway going back to this particular Japanese tsinovela entitiled Hana Kimi. It's about a japanese girl who studies and live in America, when she saw this really good looking guy who is a star athlete in an exclusive for boys school she just had to fly back to Japan and meet the guy, so she pretended to be a guy just to be close to him. Luckily she became his room mate which makes the story more interesting she gets to be with him but disguised as a guy. So the story goes but in the end when the guy has already found out abuot her he decides not to tell her that he already knew that he was a she. That's how i was disappointed to a point but since the guy was really cute i just had to search for him on the net. Hehehe! Still looking at cute guys. I just can't help it. Anyway that's how the story goes. At least in the end she did try to confess that she likes him and that she's a girl.

My OnE wEeK oLd baby!

My baby Aiden is now one week old and he has gain weight from 5 lbs and 14 ozs now he is 8 lbs and 2 ozs as of August 15, 2007. Before his Length was 19.5 inches and now he is 20.5 inches. I've been enjoying every single moment of being a mother and now that my mom would be leaving tomorrow, I would be having more bonding time with my baby. I am so happy and thankful that i have recieved this wonderful gift. Life seems to be more meaningful and colorful having him in my life. I would like to thank you guys for all the prayers and support you guys have given me. Enjoy the weekend ahead.

Photos

LABOR OF LOVE

Here it is guys the whole step by step process of giving birth to our little angel Aiden Bambasi. Last Tuesday
August 7, 2007

8:00 am Woke up to find that i peed with blood.

8:30 am Took a bath

9:00 am Getting ready for the hospital

10:00 am On the way to the hospital

10:30 am Arrived at the hospital and was admitted and checked by the attending physician

11:30 am After being examined by the physician they told me to go back since i was only 2 cm and that i should come back maybe in the afternoon or the following am.

11:45 am We arrived at Target Mall

1:00 pm I was having 5-6 mins contractions

2:00 pm Lunch at Komegashi restaurant near Newport Mall

2:44 pm Went on our way to get gas

3:00 pm Went to Pathmark across Jersey City Medical Center

3:45 pm my water breaks went to the hospital

4:00 pm Was admitted since i was 3 cm now

5:00 pm I was transferred to rm 415 contraction was getting worse

7:00 pm I just couldn't take it so i asked for an Epidural

11:00 pm I was 7 cm by this time

11:30 pm I was 9.5 cm

August 8, 2007

12:30 am I started to labor, Valsalva maneuver

1:55 am I gave birth to Aiden Bambasi W- 5 lbs and 14 ozs, L - 19.5 inches

All My Life - America

All my life, without a doubt I give you
All my life, now and forever till the
Day I die, you and I will share

All the things this changing world can offer
So I sing, I'd be happy just to
Stay this way, spend each day, with you

There was a time, that I just thought
That I would lose my mind
You came along and then the sun did shine
We started on our way
I do recall that every moment spent
Was wasted time but then I chose to lay it on the line

I put the past away
I put the past away
I put the past away

All my life, I will carry you through
All my life, between each hour of the passing days
I will stay with you

There was a time, that I just thought
That I would lose my mind
You came along and then the sun did shine
We started on our way
I do recall that every moment spent
Was wasted time then I chose to lay it on the line

I want this all my life
I want this all my life
I want this all my life
I want this all my life
I want this all my life
I wanted this all my life

Need To Be Next To You

Been running from this feeling for so long
Telling my heart I didn't need it
Pretending I was better off alone
But I know that it's just a lie
So afraid to take a chance again
So afraid of what I feel inside

But I need to be next to you
Oh I, oh I
I need to share every breath of you
Oh I, oh I
I need to know I can see you smile each morning
Look into your eyes each night for the rest of my life
Here with you, near with you, oh I
I need to be next to you
Need to be next to you

Right here with you is right where I belong
I lose my mind if I can't see you
Without you there's nothing in this life
That would make life worth living for
I can't make it if you're not there
I can't fight what I feel any more

Cause I need to be next to you
Oh I, oh I
I need to share every breath of you
Oh I, oh I
I need to know I can see you smile this morning
Look into your eyes each night for the rest of my life
Here with you, near with you, oh I
I need to be next to you
I need to have your arms next to mine for all the time
Holding for all my life
I need to be next to you
I need to be next to you
Oh I, oh I
Need to be, need to be next to you
Share every breath of you
I need to feel you in my arms, baby, in my arms baby
I need to be next to you

JB and Celine

THE LETTER

Like a kite I'm giving myself up to the wind, I made friends with the sun, confused the birds with strange and distant voyages but it is you that ties the thread and holds me down. Like a kite I will forever hold your hand and with the burning human longing in your hands, I surrender. I will never get tired of you, for you there will be no endings I will say your name over and over. celine, celine. Like a refrain, my prayer to no one. you know I will never get far and there is no need for my return only travelers leave, I've never been a traveler for I have never loved, I'm lost simply wanting to be in a placed I've never been and will never be of all destination, I longed to be lost in the fields of your hair lost, lost among your thoughts as you are already in mine. You are my will to live.. my life started when I loved you.. and that's how i want it to end..

Yours Forever,
JB

Next scene after the letter:

Celine: ikaw ba ang nagsulat ng lahat na ito?
JB (Jb looks away and looks at her with a slight smile): You never really left me celine
You we're with me in my journey, you kept me company on all those lonely nights,
you shared every sunrise with me, you were always beside me. help me heal, I was close of letting go you saved my life. Mahal kita celine, mahal na mahal kita. and you don't even need to love me back just please let me love you.