MYMP_If You Asked Me To

One of my favorite song.

GOSSIPS...GOSSIPS...GOSSIPS...

RUMOR/GOSSIP is a person who habitually reveals personal or sensational facts about others 2 a : rumor or report of an intimate nature b : a chatty talk c : the subject matter of gossip.

Lately this has been my favorite topic, why? Because lately there's this certain family relative who has been trying very hard to make life worse for me. Though she maybe working in a well-known non-government company and i thought she has learned a lot about ethics well i guess she still needs to be re-educated about it. Does she even know when to draw the line? Who is she to talk to love ones behind my back? I don't think that she is being "CONCERNED" about me and my life being on my own. I can't even think of any reason why she would be doing these things because as i recall i haven't even done anything bad to her and her family. So why do all these things happen?

Does she even realize what she has been doing all these time? BUT this i can assure you she can never BREAK me, of who i am and what i have become. I have chosen a life i know i can survive. If she envies the freedom that i have growing up then why bother repeating her life pattern with me. Does she know we have different generations? A person who is miserable with her life due to choices she made would not be happy for other people's happiness. We all have flaws and our life is not perfect nor do any person in this world. In God's eyes there's no rich or poor, He doesn't choose people who goes to heaven through that. So why does she even bother?

The thing that pisses me off is how she could ever face me with such innocent face like she didn't do anything at all. I really hate it when i encounter such people, why are they in this world? She goes on with life knowing inside her that people hates her but then does she really know it? Well i think i am ready to face the bully in my life.... i am just having enough courage to face it!

RyAn's PaGe

Wala lang just thought of posting these pictures that i edited meaning tsugi ang mga beauty ng katabi ni papa RYAN... ( hahaha i feel so bad!) Ayan na mylen yun hanap mo ficture from me with his eyeglass di an sya sunglass.... up until now naloloka na ko nun makita ko sya... hahaha! Have a nice weekend ahead you all!

FiSHiNG! FiSHiNG AnYoNe?

LANCE

He loves ice cream that much!

ARE YOU IN HEAT? (AKO VERY MUCH!!!)

Who would have thought that i would finally see him in person again and even had the chance to shake his hand and kiss him on the cheek. He's really nice and he even stopped before going to his room. I know, i know ang babaw ko but then that was a long time dream just to be able to meet him or talk to him and whatever... i'll be happy and satisfied. He's one of my inspiration for some reason he just makes my day and well i never stopped admiring him. Another reason for me to smile whenever i think about him. Naku bka magalit na boyfriend ko... LoL! My NeY knows naman that i love him and this thing with PaPa RyAn A. it's just a crush! This was taken yesterday August 19, 2006 at Marriot Courtyard Secaucus,NJ.

RYAN AGONCILLO...

Last night as i was studying suddenly Doc sent me a message telling me that he had dinner with Ryan Agoncillo and the whole entourage at Minado's in Little Ferry (japanese restaurant). At first i couldn't believe him for he usually tease me with stuffs and i even told him how he's like that boy who cried wolf story. Not until i confirmed it that it was indeed Ryan Agoncillo to whom he sat across him and even had the chance to talk. I was surprise because all these time he knew how i had this major crush on Ryan Agoncillo and how i told him he looks like him. Now they saw each other face to face, who would have known what a small world we have.

Anyway wow today is our 1 year and 7 months anniversary! It's been that long now! It still amazes me everytime i take a moment to just think and refresh my memories of how everything started between us. I'm just happy and enjoying every moment of my life.

Enjoy the weekend folks!

P.S.

I'm not sure if i'm going to see my PAPA RYAN AGONCILLO this weekend but i do envy Doc (still crossing my fingers!)...

ChOcOLaTe... So HeAvEnLy!!!

So this has been going on for weeks and well i've been looking for this chocolate brownie recipe that i saw on TV (Guess been watching too much foodnetwork!) but up until now i couldn't find it. I have the recipe and all but i don't know the name. Guess i've been wanting to make it and master it just like the cheesecake that i usually do whenever there's a special occasion. Anyway wala lang i'm just obsessing about it for weeks now but haven't had the chance to do it. Maybe in time hehehe! Got other priorities before anything else.

Arg.... brownies! not the magic brownies where you'd get high or whatever! Well that's for now folks... gtg.... enjoy the weekend ahead!

Silvertoes

Just learned how to add videos from Mylene... Hehehe! The song is from my favorite band Parokya ni Edgar. Wala trip ko lang sya since it has a good melody and the lyrics is so cool. Syempre may i dedicate ito sa mga girls na ganech... hahahahaha!

My FaVoRiTe ScEnE

For those who don't know this tsinovela well it's a taiwan based tv series and it has become so popular esp back home (Philippines). I just love how both the character loved each other.

OLD MEMORIES

When i think of my highschool years and college life i am very thankful for everything that had happened to me in the past. I had such a wonderful life and well good memories od last forever though i do try to forget the bad ones. Here's a photo of my circle of friends back in college. This was taken during Gani's birthday which we celebrated at another friend's place. Those were the days... hay ang sarap alalahanin... I miss these guys syempre kahit may konting drama back then everyone was cool about stuffs. I guess time does make you strong and so does the friendship though maybe when people lose touch they also lose the friendship but for me it's not like that. Remember this Mylene???? Ang kukulit natin noon di ba? Wala i was just checking our yahoo group and saw the photos. It kind of reminded me of how it was back then.... Anyway hope everyone had nice start of the week.

THE WEEKEND THAT WAS

This was the train ride we had last weekend July 22-23,2006. It was not a long time plan even to begin with but we planned quick trip to margaretville, NY. As usual the guys went to their favorite hobby that is fishing at the river. We stayed at a new place called Alpine Osterias a bed and breakfast which was owned by Scott a good friend of Charlotte the one who owns Gateway Lodge (another bed and breakfast that we used to stay at everytime we go there). Just what we needed away from the city life, time to relax and just enjoy the weekend.

FOLLOW YOUR HEART

"The tough thing about following your heart is what people forget to mention, that sometimes your heart takes you to places you shouldn't be, places that are as scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring, and sometimes your heart takes you to places that can never lead to a happy ending. And that's not even the difficult part. The difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal, you go into the unknown. And once you do, you can never go back." Liz Parker (Roswell)

No matter where you are and what you are doing right now there are days like these your mind starts to wonder about your life. I believe that things do happen for a reason and i've always said that in the past as always. For some reason my mind wonders for time to time of things especially about the future. What if and what would happen if things were different but then life seems to be unfair and at times just fine. I can't even say if i am making any sense at all right now. I guess i still have some part of me kept hidden and just spilling everything won't make any sense at all.

My heart has taken me into the unknown place and as of writing i am taking it one day ata a time. Living my life and just enjoying every minute of it. Though at times i don't really show it but deep down i am happy to where i am but then there are soem things that i can't deny the feeling of frustration of having the job i want and for us to be on our own. I've always dreamt that in time things would be different nothing last forever and things do change for a reason. God has his way of showing me how to appreciate my life and the world i live in.

Ayan mega serious na naman lola nyo... ewan ko ba lately i've been thinking and thinking of stuffs. My head wonders a lot and sometimes it makes me worry of little things that i shouldn't be worried. Anyway til my next blog.... Enjoy the rest of the week....

SOME DEEP THOUGHTS

Lately i've been into a lot of thinking and it's because of how my life is going, i'm not complaining but then it's just that things has to change with US. As soon as I get through with my exam and i get a job that i love, well we have to do the TALK. Our priorities has to change and it has to deal with US not anyone else not to be selfish or whatever but if we want to start on our own we better do it soon. I've always been independent and that's how i see things even if i would have a family of my own. I do hope everyone understand that it's better this way. Sometimes when i think of it i try my best to understand but then there are times that i feel that i've had enough. It's just that things has been different when it comes to my point of view. I guess there's a time and a place for everything.

Anyway just wanted to share my deep thoughts! Enjoy the long weekend but for most of us who has work on Monday just go with the flow...

JUNE 19-22, 2006 VACATION

Statue of Liberty

NYC 42nd Street

Atlantic City

Hershey Park

LET"S DRINK TO THAT....

When i'm in my thinking mode just like now because i can feel my the world spinning around me since i am a little bit drunk due to hurricane this drink that we bought from a liquor store. This usually happens i act on my impulsive side and taht is my thinking mode. As of writing the world around me is spinning and i would like to remember this day for some reason. I know it's bad to expect thing from people but then how could i help it when i expect soemthing good about a person to act mature and to know better but then when they turns you down and make an act you're not expecting them to doi it just pisse you off just like i am right now.... ewan ko siguro i'm just used to being a good girl after all being good and all... yun lang! basta as of writing this piece i am DRUNK.... hahahahahahahaha........

ROSES ARE RED

Lately my Ney has been buying me roses and i do appreciate the thought but it's really not his style to be romantic for he is not the romantic type. For some reason i do accept the fact that he is not and i do appreciate him for who he is. This is how it usually happens we go to pathmark and we pass by the flower/plant section as we go on our way to the vegetable section and i just looked at the flowers, he notices it and then says would you like to buy the flowers. Then i would reply it's up to you but deep down i do want it. Then i would tell him that's not a question to ask me about and still he would ask me but buy me flowers anyway.

I love the fact that he knows what i like and the way he knows me very well makes me feel good inside. I'm so thankful for everything i have right now and though i still wished for something else i can say that i feel secured already.

Oh well enjoy your weekend everyone!

THE FORBIDDEN KISS (back then)

June 4, 2006 I was invited together with my cousin Kuya JV for our other cousins dinner party at LUA restaurant in Hoboken, New Jersey. Prior to that occassion i have been exchanging emails with an old friend (let me call him Doc Ryan for everyone who doesn't know him) since what had happened to my nephew Lance and he was the one who helped with my nephew's situation. Anyway since then we've been emailing each other, asking about the dinner party and all i get is a confusing answer. It was sort of exciting and at the same time feeling old memories back then but then i have my IaN so everything has changed since then. The feelings for Doc Ryan has been dormant and might not be the same if we see each other again. But deep down i have a feeling that i would see him on this particular occassion.

When we got to the restaurant, i immediately look for him hoping that i got there first before he did, why? for the simple reason that i would want to be ready when i see him. It's been what 3 years since i last saw him or even talked to him. I had to cut everything off between us since I had to avoid that certain situation cause I know for sure that we could have been more than friends if I continue to do so. So there was i talking with my friends and cousins. When i saw him walking towards the entrance outside. I pretended that I didn't see him but then my friends saw him and they started to tease me about it. I was like "Okay he's here." kind of not so surprised about him being there when i knew from the start that he could be there. The moment i did finally said hi was when i went to the bar to get my cousin a drink and i mumbled "hey you!" and he greets me back as well. We said a couple of hi and hello mentioning about the email then i told him i have to go back to the table.

All through out dinner we weren't given the chance to talk like old friends but then when i volunteered to take the video cam and took videos of everyone i was able to talk to him for a while. He asked why id idn't gave him my cellphone number and out of friendship i gave him my number that night. Then all through out the night we kept exchanging text messages. It was nice seeing doc ryan again but this time it's different it's more of friendship than anything else. The last text i got from him before he left the restaurant was "When will you call me?" which by the way made me smile. I did bid him goodbye with a hug and he kissed me on the cheek.

Oh well i think i've said enough for now and i do think i've had enough coffee for now...

MEMORIAL WEEKEND AT MARGARETVILLE, NY

First photo was taken at Belleayre Mountain, we were supposed to ride on the chair lift but then it was closed due to memorial day, look at the nice view. 2nd photo still at Belleayre Mountain just enjoying the magnificent view. 3rd photo my cute nephew Lance swimming in the river, he loves the water. 4th photo Fishing, fishing anyone? My NeY trying to show off his skills. 5th photo My cousin Kuya JV and my NeY Ian fishing while Lance enjoying the water and with mom Mel.

ToP TeN FaVoRiTe PeoPLe

1. Christopher "Ian" P. Bambasi - who could be #1 in my list and #1 in my heart. His sense of humor is one of his best quality and the way he takes care of me as I take care of him. He's the best thing that ever happened to me. He's one of the most important person in my life. He has change my life tremendously and I am very thankful that i met him.

2. Mylene S. Dizon- My, My she's one of those people i ran to whenever i need someone just like Celeste. We've been through together a lot. Ups and downs and we did one time share a someone but that didn't stop us from being friends. We could always read each other's mind and even finish each other's sentence. I knew from the moment we became close that she's worth keeping and that will never change.

3. Celeste Bolaños-Reyes- She's my childhood friend and up until now we've been friends. We've been through a lot. She's one of my strenght and she keeps me grounded. She's one of those people that I can talk to about anything under the sun. She knows the real me inside-out. She's the wind beneath my wings, someone who i can count on everything though at times we don't usually talk but i know that we have this deep connection between us.

4. Joseph "Jay" B. Guadalupe - My bestfriend for so many years i could easily say that since it's true. We just met through a text message he sent by mistake and from that we became bestfriends. He's my computer guy since he knows a lot about it. I thank God for giving me Jay, who could have thought that i would find someone like him. We talked like we haven't seen each other or talked like an hour or so ago since we both are a big talker in a way that we can tell each other everything that's happening in our life. Now that we're really apart i miss everything that we do together. I'm happy to know that HE can open up to me about things that bother him esp with his girlfriends that come to think of it the count has reached my age... LOL!

5. Lorie Balasabas - We met at the part time job we had at a Filipino store we both used to work at. We had so much fun working and chatting at the same time. It just so happens that we clicked, we have so much in common that we can talk about anything under the sun. May it be some conflicts or some gossips we found out. Movies we love movies! We're such coffee lovers that we could drink 2-4 cups of it during work. One of the things i admire is her determination on anything she does and puts her mind to it. She has been a very good friend of mine.

6. Teresa "Ate Tere" Versoza - Well she's my co-worker and a very good friend. We talked about things in life and when you're with her there's never a dull moment. She's full of life and i do learn a lot from her especially when we talked about "sex education 101". She's the "SEX GURU" and has lots of stories based from experience... hahahaha! When i have some trouble in cooking or need a recipe for something or need to ask for directions she's the one i run to.

7. Mae Compuesto - Although she's my boyfriend's bestfriend, she has become one of my favorite people, someone real and someone whose such an inspiration. She's been through a lot but she has an extraordinary persona. She's a true friend and she can listen to you when you need her to. She's a hot mama with 2 kids. LOL!

8. Daena Rachel Engalla - She's small and young at the tender age of 10 but she's one of those people i could consider a friend. Since we have this connection between us. We have a lot in common and what i like about her is how i can easily talk to her about stuffs that we both have common knowledge. She makes me feel young at heart and in touch with my inner child.

9. Mike (Fave customer) - This guy can make me smile and just cheers me up everytime i see him. It's like he has this cheerful ray of light around him. He can always brighten up my day even if i have problems and conflicts in life. He knows a lot about Filipino stuffs since his ex-wife was a Filipina. He is really nice and have lots of stories to tell and jokes. He's been to the Philippines.

10. JR Engalla - this cute little boy has this certain charm that everyone would love him. I do enjoy having him around since he has this energy like an energizer that keeps going and going and going... He can easily think of ideas that would make anything crazy. He's a lovable kid and there's never a dull moment when you're with him and his sister Daena.