UPDATES

This was the reason why i haven't updated my blog i've been busy with work and with this stuffs happening in my life right now. I'm very happy right now knowing that i would be a mom sometime in August 2007. Wow! At first i couldn't believe it myself it's like when we had our first pregnancy test i had mix emotions of what i would be feeling and how would i be feeling when i find out the truth. Then reality hits me and finally we've been sort of expecting it at the right time i guess this was the right time. O ayan may makakalaro na ang pamangkin ko si Lance... hahahaha! For those i haven't tell it too TRUE po ito WALANG BIRO! I AM VERY PREGNANT! Thank God i was able to tell to my parents and they understood wala ba hassle of questions what,where and when etc.... Come to think of it i am of age naku naman. I will be 30 y/o this coming April actuallly both us are (Ian and me)

So here's the update about my pregnancy:

January 3, 2007 We had our first pregnancy test and it was positive, pretty exciting don't you think?
January 6, 2007 2nd pregnancy test and still positive
January 8, 2007 Had my 1st appointment with my case manager OB-GYN Shirley Harris-Johnson and everything went fine.
January 13, 2007 Had my first ultrasound and saw my baby,the lady who saw me said it was 15 weeks old already, touching isn't it? I almost cried but deep down i did.
January 23, 2007 Had my first papsmear, PPD and my 2nd ultrasound since my mid-wife Marie Ditomasso wasn't sure it was 15 weeks old since when she felt me inside, it felt like the baby was too small. So as of now I finally got the right age 11 weeks and 6 days.


Hope you guys enjoiy teh rest of the week!

A walk to remember - the weakness in me

THE WEAKNESS IN ME

I'm not the sort of person who falls in and quickly out of love

But to you I gave my affection right from the start

I have a lover who loves me, how could I break such a heart

Yet still you get my attention

Why do you come here when you know I've got troubles enough

Why do you call me when you know I can't answer the phone

Make me lie and I don't want to

And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool

You make me stay when I should not

Are you so strong or is all the weakness in me

Why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by

But I mean to see you

And I mean to hold you, tightly

Feeling guilty, worried, waking from tormented sleep

This old love has me bound but the new love cuts deep

If I choose now, I'll lose out, one of you has to fall

And I need you, and you

Why do you come here when you know I've got troubles enough

Why do you call me when you know I can't answer the phone

Make me lie and I don't want to

And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool

You make me stay when I should not

Are you so strong or is all the weakness in me

Why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by

But I mean to see you

And I mean to hold you, tightly

YEAR 2007

" The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw, my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again. " Ephram ( Everwood 2002 )

It was not so long ago that I was thinking of the changes that i've gone through, of how everything was before. I still can't believe that life has given me much to learn about and i still am learning more. I guess the changes i have made has made me a better person all along. I kow how it feels to undergo those adjustment periods in which you go through while being in another place and all. But then being in a new place makes you wonder of how life would have been if you were back home. I know deep down that God Has put me in the right place. There's a place and time for everything though i haven't gotten what i wished for I know that it will come to me at the right time.

I am very thankful for all the things i have right now. A loving and supportive family back home. My cousins who are always there with me in everything. Friends who has always been there and always have time for me and never forgets to just pops up when they have the time. For new friends that i had made throughout this journey i am still going through. Life has so much to give me and i have so much to give back too. Sheesh! Ang drama eh pwede na sa FAMAS o MMFF hahahaha!

May this year be full of hopes and more new learning in life. Lapit na ang weekend! Yehey! hahaha! sabay ganun eh!

NEW YEAR PHOTOS 2007

Kaitlyn (Ian's niece) and Me
Party People!!!

Red, Black and Yellow ang theme!!!

Ian and Me