" The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw, my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again. " Ephram ( Everwood 2002 )
It was not so long ago that I was thinking of the changes that i've gone through, of how everything was before. I still can't believe that life has given me much to learn about and i still am learning more. I guess the changes i have made has made me a better person all along. I kow how it feels to undergo those adjustment periods in which you go through while being in another place and all. But then being in a new place makes you wonder of how life would have been if you were back home. I know deep down that God Has put me in the right place. There's a place and time for everything though i haven't gotten what i wished for I know that it will come to me at the right time.
I am very thankful for all the things i have right now. A loving and supportive family back home. My cousins who are always there with me in everything. Friends who has always been there and always have time for me and never forgets to just pops up when they have the time. For new friends that i had made throughout this journey i am still going through. Life has so much to give me and i have so much to give back too. Sheesh! Ang drama eh pwede na sa FAMAS o MMFF hahahaha!
May this year be full of hopes and more new learning in life. Lapit na ang weekend! Yehey! hahaha! sabay ganun eh!
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