October 27, 2007 Birthday/Halloween Party

kuya JV and Lance

Bistro San Miguel, South Jersey
Welcome Committee
Birthday Cake
Me and Aiden
Hugging time!

Mel and me
Enjoying our Smirnoff drink
Witches and She-Devils
Sweethearts Jay and Theye
Papa Jay

The birthdaygirl Gladys and her escort

Me and the escort

This was taken during Gladys birthday/halloween party at a Filipino restaurant in South Jersey. We ate and played games. The party was a blast and everyone enjoyed the party though it was just a few of us there.
The games we had were 1st the mummy wrap; two partners one wrapping the other one with toilet paper. 2nd game was bingo gladys' style. 3rd was charades and also videoke was present. Those with the voice, i wanted to sing but it's my hidden talent no one has t know hahaha!

PhoTos

One afternoon at Bayonne Park (Jersey city, New Jersey)
Sunset at bayonne Park

Downtown Jersey

Turnpike Bridge Jersey City, New Jersey

Taal Volcano, Tagaytay (Philippines)

View from Tagaytay Highlands of Taal Volcano

Nice view of Taal Volcano

Just wanted to share a few photos, the first 4 photos was taken by me and the 3 photos was taken by my aunt in the Philippines.

AiDeN 3 months old

Aiden is 3 months old now as of yesterday and he is 14.8 lbs as of last Monday Novemeber 5, 2007. Just a few updates of my baby Aiden. He smiles a lot and he's really such a happy baby. It feels good to see him smile cause i know that everything i do is worth it. Though at times i know, Ian can attest to this, i could be burn out but that's part of being a mother. I do enjoy every bit of it. Here in this video you can see he's so noisyand smiling a lot.

Aaliyah The one i gave my heart to

Feeling senti lng! Hahahaha!

Dashboard Confessionals - Vindicated (with lyrics)

i love this song!

Aiden's Photos

Aiden 2 months old celebration October 8, 2007

What a Smile!

Mommy and Aiden

Daddy (fishing) and Aiden (sleeping) at the Bayonne Park

Smile Aiden

Kick that ball....

Aiden is 2 months old now and he's still growing. I am enjoying every moment of motherhood although at times i feel like i am alone. I do understand that things we'll be fine later on and i still hope to go back to work, so i'm still crossing my fingers. I love the fact that i am able to take care of my baby. Life is good and things have change for the better. So what else is new? Not much but lately these past weekends we've been going out on occassions and Aiden is getting exposed to people which is good. Like later on today we'll be going to my good friend's house to have some get together and to celebrate her Ate Cynthia's birthday. So i'm looking forward to it. Anyway enjoy your weekend gals, guys and gays!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOLO TONY!

This was taken a vey long time ago and i don't really remember how old i was back then. It was kuya JV's birthday, holding him is tita Gilda next to him is our Lolo Tony who had passed away many years ago and well it's his birthday today, he would have been 95 y/o if he was alive. at the back you could see me and my yaya. I don't really recall this event but still i love looking at this photo remembering those days. I do miss my lolo Tony very much! I could have been a doctor by now if he didn't died, see he was anouncing it to everyone that i would be one and he even promised me a carin my first year. Life would have been different and well thinking about it now i have no idea if i would still be meeting Ian or Christopher Bambasi in that future. Hehehe!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Three of the most important people in my life has their birthday this month. Mylene and Ian are both turning 30 while Jay is turning 28. Wow! how time fly so fast. I've been so lucky to have met them and be loved by them. Anywho... i wish them the best in life . I found this photo of a cake and just for fun post it here see i find this cute. Reminiscing a few good memories...

So it's been a while i haven't really posted anything though there are a lot to talk abuot but i'm not so into typing lately hehehe! But i will post the latest photos of Aiden when he was one month old and well next week he'll be two months old. He's becoming heavier and longer... and more adorbale... The joy of motherhood!

Anyway i just want to give a shout out to my bestfriends and NeY!!!! Enjoy the weekend ahead i know i will...

Jeff Buckley-Grace

Grace
By Jeff Buckley, Gary Lucas (© Gary Lucas Music BMI)

There's the moon asking to stay
Long enough for the clouds to fly me away
Well it's my time coming, I'm not afraid to die

My fading voice sings of love,
But she cries to the clicking of time.
Oh, time. Wait in the fire...

And she weeps on my arm
Walking to the bright lights in sorrow
Oh drink a bit of wine we both might go tomorrow
Oh my love...

And the rain is falling
And I believe my time has come
It reminds me of the pain I might leave behind...
Wait in the fire

And I feel them drown my name
So easy to know and forget with this kiss
I'm not afraid to go but it goes so slow...

pussy cat dolls -sway

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Sway me, take me
Thrill me, hold me
Bend me, ease me
You have a way with me

Sway (sway)

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I go weak

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Sway me
Sway me
Sway me now

Finger Eleven - One Thing

I love this song! I was chatting with a friend of mine and we were talking about this video. So i just had to search it.

AND WHEN SHE DANCED

(LOVE THEME FROM STEALING HOME)
Written by David Foster and Linda Thompson-Jenner

M: Can you go back in time to a place in your mind
To the one who knew a part of you
That you just couldn’t find.

T: If you ask me to choose between a memory or two
When it’s said and done
I’ll take the one who’s love I had to lose.

M: Cause when she danced
I lost my inner sense
I loved her then, I always would.

** M: She left with me**
F: It’s still with me
T: A burnin’ memory
M: She took with her a part of me

F: If I could get back where I’ve been
Feel the passion I felt then
T: I’d be there right now and yet somehow
It never comes again

## M: She had nothin’ to gain##
F: No where to go
** M: To the way out of pain**
F: The time withM: With a song and dance she lost romance
T: The world had gone insane
## M: Cause when she danced##
F: Cause when we danced
T: I lost my inner sense
** M: I loved her then**
F: I loved
## M: I always will##
F: I always will

** M: She left with me**
F: He left with me
T: A burnin’ memory
F: Remember somehow
M: She took with her a part of me

T: Can you go back in time to a place in your mind
To the one who knew a part of you
That you just couldn’t find

M: Lookin’ back I’m not sure
If I won or lost the war
When she danced with me
Our hearts were free as far as I could see

F: I’d be there right now and yet somehow
It never comes again

M: When she danced with me
## M: Our hearts were free##
F: Were free

and when she danced

This was the theme song from the movie Stealing Home which my bestfriend Mylene told me about last night and which stars Jodei Foster and Mark Harmon. I just had to search it at you tube and found this video. I like the song actually, will try to look for the lyrics and post it here. Thanks to Mylene.

Nicholas Teo - Little Turtle (w/ eng sub)

I just finished watching this taiwanese tsinovela and this song is really cute! The series was really funny and cool!

S.H.E. - zen me ban (hana kimi OST)

Remember the tsinovela i was writing about. So here's the official soundtrack. Look at Wu Zun (the guy) he's so cute! I think the video is cute too!

COURAGE TO LOVE

"It is but a shadow and a thought that you love. I cannot give you what you seek. " Aragorn (Lord of the Rings: Return of the King)

I guess i've been watching too much LOTR trilogy that's why i just had to use this favorite line of mine. It's been a while since i last wrote something that i had in mind. Well uit just occured to me that life is too short to waste all my energy on something negative so that's why i'm writing something positive and well from my heart.

Lately i've been watching Taiwanese drama and the titlwe is Smiling Pasta. It's sort of like Full House, the korean drama i used to watch and a little of Lavender too. The main actor reminds me so much of Chester Lasquety (a classmate of mine back in college though in real life he is taller than the actor.) Anyways the drama is good although the actress' character is sort of dumb in a way that is cute. It's actually a light tsinovela and after watching it i usually feel good. For some reason it just makes my heart jump for a while. In watching this i learned that the main actress' character has chosen to show the courage to love for her love interest and it's fun to watch how their love truly unfolds. For most of the episodes they're like cat and dog always having petty fights that seems to spices up their relationship. Which coincidentally reminds me of a good friend and teacher from college. We usually talks about her relationship and how they usually fights over non-sense things but deep down they truly love each other. Funny how simple life is and how people try to make things interesting and complicated at times.

I did found another Japanese tsinovela and well the story was okay but the ending was disappointing for me since I have to think of how it really ends. I don't really enjoy doing that to amke my own ending for a movie or either tv series. I'd rather watch how it really ends may it be happy or sad. Anyway going back to this particular Japanese tsinovela entitiled Hana Kimi. It's about a japanese girl who studies and live in America, when she saw this really good looking guy who is a star athlete in an exclusive for boys school she just had to fly back to Japan and meet the guy, so she pretended to be a guy just to be close to him. Luckily she became his room mate which makes the story more interesting she gets to be with him but disguised as a guy. So the story goes but in the end when the guy has already found out abuot her he decides not to tell her that he already knew that he was a she. That's how i was disappointed to a point but since the guy was really cute i just had to search for him on the net. Hehehe! Still looking at cute guys. I just can't help it. Anyway that's how the story goes. At least in the end she did try to confess that she likes him and that she's a girl.

My OnE wEeK oLd baby!

My baby Aiden is now one week old and he has gain weight from 5 lbs and 14 ozs now he is 8 lbs and 2 ozs as of August 15, 2007. Before his Length was 19.5 inches and now he is 20.5 inches. I've been enjoying every single moment of being a mother and now that my mom would be leaving tomorrow, I would be having more bonding time with my baby. I am so happy and thankful that i have recieved this wonderful gift. Life seems to be more meaningful and colorful having him in my life. I would like to thank you guys for all the prayers and support you guys have given me. Enjoy the weekend ahead.

Photos

LABOR OF LOVE

Here it is guys the whole step by step process of giving birth to our little angel Aiden Bambasi. Last Tuesday
August 7, 2007

8:00 am Woke up to find that i peed with blood.

8:30 am Took a bath

9:00 am Getting ready for the hospital

10:00 am On the way to the hospital

10:30 am Arrived at the hospital and was admitted and checked by the attending physician

11:30 am After being examined by the physician they told me to go back since i was only 2 cm and that i should come back maybe in the afternoon or the following am.

11:45 am We arrived at Target Mall

1:00 pm I was having 5-6 mins contractions

2:00 pm Lunch at Komegashi restaurant near Newport Mall

2:44 pm Went on our way to get gas

3:00 pm Went to Pathmark across Jersey City Medical Center

3:45 pm my water breaks went to the hospital

4:00 pm Was admitted since i was 3 cm now

5:00 pm I was transferred to rm 415 contraction was getting worse

7:00 pm I just couldn't take it so i asked for an Epidural

11:00 pm I was 7 cm by this time

11:30 pm I was 9.5 cm

August 8, 2007

12:30 am I started to labor, Valsalva maneuver

1:55 am I gave birth to Aiden Bambasi W- 5 lbs and 14 ozs, L - 19.5 inches

All My Life - America

All my life, without a doubt I give you
All my life, now and forever till the
Day I die, you and I will share

All the things this changing world can offer
So I sing, I'd be happy just to
Stay this way, spend each day, with you

There was a time, that I just thought
That I would lose my mind
You came along and then the sun did shine
We started on our way
I do recall that every moment spent
Was wasted time but then I chose to lay it on the line

I put the past away
I put the past away
I put the past away

All my life, I will carry you through
All my life, between each hour of the passing days
I will stay with you

There was a time, that I just thought
That I would lose my mind
You came along and then the sun did shine
We started on our way
I do recall that every moment spent
Was wasted time then I chose to lay it on the line

I want this all my life
I want this all my life
I want this all my life
I want this all my life
I want this all my life
I wanted this all my life

Need To Be Next To You

Been running from this feeling for so long
Telling my heart I didn't need it
Pretending I was better off alone
But I know that it's just a lie
So afraid to take a chance again
So afraid of what I feel inside

But I need to be next to you
Oh I, oh I
I need to share every breath of you
Oh I, oh I
I need to know I can see you smile each morning
Look into your eyes each night for the rest of my life
Here with you, near with you, oh I
I need to be next to you
Need to be next to you

Right here with you is right where I belong
I lose my mind if I can't see you
Without you there's nothing in this life
That would make life worth living for
I can't make it if you're not there
I can't fight what I feel any more

Cause I need to be next to you
Oh I, oh I
I need to share every breath of you
Oh I, oh I
I need to know I can see you smile this morning
Look into your eyes each night for the rest of my life
Here with you, near with you, oh I
I need to be next to you
I need to have your arms next to mine for all the time
Holding for all my life
I need to be next to you
I need to be next to you
Oh I, oh I
Need to be, need to be next to you
Share every breath of you
I need to feel you in my arms, baby, in my arms baby
I need to be next to you

JB and Celine

THE LETTER

Like a kite I'm giving myself up to the wind, I made friends with the sun, confused the birds with strange and distant voyages but it is you that ties the thread and holds me down. Like a kite I will forever hold your hand and with the burning human longing in your hands, I surrender. I will never get tired of you, for you there will be no endings I will say your name over and over. celine, celine. Like a refrain, my prayer to no one. you know I will never get far and there is no need for my return only travelers leave, I've never been a traveler for I have never loved, I'm lost simply wanting to be in a placed I've never been and will never be of all destination, I longed to be lost in the fields of your hair lost, lost among your thoughts as you are already in mine. You are my will to live.. my life started when I loved you.. and that's how i want it to end..

Yours Forever,
JB

Next scene after the letter:

Celine: ikaw ba ang nagsulat ng lahat na ito?
JB (Jb looks away and looks at her with a slight smile): You never really left me celine
You we're with me in my journey, you kept me company on all those lonely nights,
you shared every sunrise with me, you were always beside me. help me heal, I was close of letting go you saved my life. Mahal kita celine, mahal na mahal kita. and you don't even need to love me back just please let me love you.

Box Car Racer - I Feel So

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

™[LINKIN PARK - Breaking The Habit]™

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I’m picking me apart again
You all assume
I’m safe here in my room
(unless I try to start again)

I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
‘Cause inside I realize
That I’m the one confused

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I know it’s not alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I’ll paint it on the walls
‘Cause I’m the one at fault
I’ll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don’t know how I got this
I’ll never be alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
Breaking the habit
Tonight

YOU'RE PISSING ME OFF

I keep telling and reminding you of your acts and yet you don't listen to me. I'm just totally stressed out from the things you do and act. How could i be relax at a moment like this? Can you understand my situation that I am pregnant and yet you give me such a stress. I just hate it that you couldn't consider how i feel and how i am right now. Your friends wouldn't care becauase they don't know the real meaning of RESPONSIBILITY, see all they have is their mommy, daddy and siblings plus girlfriends but you, you are committed to me and to our unborn child. You now know the consequences of your actions and yet i won't have to reveal it here but let me just blow out some of my anger and frustrations. I am so disappointed in you at this moment now and i really don't know how you can redeem yourself in this situation.

IM STRESSED OUT!

I just couldn't help myself about it but the thought just keeps repeating itself in my head. I just hate the way they make me feel as always but i'm gonna be okay don't you guys worry. It's just that why do they have to always be right when they are already wrong. With such beliefs that they know all the answers but the truth is they don't. Why do i have to under go such things but then who would make me strong and a better person than they are. I just feel sick and tired of all these nonsense esp with that certain girl relative (girl??? yes cause the way she acts is like a girl instead of a grown up woman....) It's just hurts knowing that i have these kinds of people surrounding me. All this evil around me makes me feel that no one can escape all their non-sense talks. Aaaahhhhhhhhhh! Why do i have these people around me, why? Can please tell me why????? Feel free to comment about it people please.... hahahaha! anyway i got to go for now.....

Maniwala Ka Sana - Parokya Ni Edgar

finally found the video for this song... LoL!

Silvertoes - Parokya Ni Edgar

i got the video wahahahaha!

depeche mode - somebody

soundtrip ako now! just to be relax...

Goo Goo Dolls - Stay With You

it's such a nice song!

THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS

I'm so excited as of this moment since my parents are on their way here (New Jersey). Although something has never change. Change is good though but they need to understand that my parents are visiting me this time and it's my life they want ot be a part. I do hope they understand that i am in the spotlight not anyone else. I just don't understand why they couldn't just for once think of what they are doing instead of acting impulsively. They are my family and i am their priority after that it's them now. I don't want to dwell on it too much due to me being pregnant and all. I just hope that somehow they would eventually truly understand without feeling left out or being amgry. Anyway enjoy the rest of the weekend.

BiRtHdAy CeLeBrAtIoN @ Margaretville, New York

Birthday balloon
Birthday balloon

Party tables

Preparation for the party!

Flowers for the celebrant

Before the party

Fresh flower on the tableThe candles

Me enjoying the party!!! LoL!

Party Time!

The birthday celebrant Tita Julie

The birthday cake

It's time to make a wish and blow the candle!

Wish! Wish! Wish!

Happy birthday!

Look it's time for Lance to blow the candle!

Wow that was cool!

The Paper dance!

Game time people!

JULY 4, 2007 @ ORCHARD BEACH

This was taken last July 4, 2007. From L-R: Mel and Lance, Liezl, Clong, me, Mike and Mathews (Liezl's son). As you can see in the background was lots of people who came there to enjoy the beach and as well as barbecue party. There were lots of people and well although the weather was not so good a lot of people came and relax since it was the 4th of July.

SUMMER HEAT

This summer heat just makes me feel so not in the mood and it just makes me angrier with stuffs going on with my life. i don't know for some reason every little thing pisses me off and it occured to me now that it might be the pregnancy period or whatever it is, i can't seem to be happy this past few days. It just pisses me off and i hate that feeling.. It just won't go away as much i wanted to. I hate, hate hate everything right now and i don't know what to do. I hate the feeling of not knowing what to do and not knowing how i can make myself be happy and satisfied for the moment. I can't even talk to anyone about it and it just makes me feel so powerless over something that i couldn't understand myself. I guess i juast needed to write it down and express it myself and just maybe i would feel much better. I got a lot of things on my mind right now and it just pisses me off when i can't even do anything about stuffs. But in time i would eventually do. As of now this is it...

Linkin Park- One Step Closer

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
You'll find that out anyway
Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
Shut up, I'm about to break!

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break (more)

Creed - What if

Eto mega sound trip kasi nakaka-inis eh! Badtrip kasi ako now...

bagsakan by parokya ni edgar feat. francis m and gloc-9

Just saw this new video! Sound trip eh!

Mitsubishi Adventure 2004 Commercial

Nakaka-alis pa itong isa! CooL talaga!

Rebisco BUDDY Parokya Ni Edgar

hehehe! ang kukulit talaga nila... CooL!

PAROKYA NI EDGAR NESCAFE COMMERCIAL

new commercial ng parokya ni edgar... yehey! cool!!!