JULY 4, 2007 @ ORCHARD BEACH

This was taken last July 4, 2007. From L-R: Mel and Lance, Liezl, Clong, me, Mike and Mathews (Liezl's son). As you can see in the background was lots of people who came there to enjoy the beach and as well as barbecue party. There were lots of people and well although the weather was not so good a lot of people came and relax since it was the 4th of July.

SUMMER HEAT

This summer heat just makes me feel so not in the mood and it just makes me angrier with stuffs going on with my life. i don't know for some reason every little thing pisses me off and it occured to me now that it might be the pregnancy period or whatever it is, i can't seem to be happy this past few days. It just pisses me off and i hate that feeling.. It just won't go away as much i wanted to. I hate, hate hate everything right now and i don't know what to do. I hate the feeling of not knowing what to do and not knowing how i can make myself be happy and satisfied for the moment. I can't even talk to anyone about it and it just makes me feel so powerless over something that i couldn't understand myself. I guess i juast needed to write it down and express it myself and just maybe i would feel much better. I got a lot of things on my mind right now and it just pisses me off when i can't even do anything about stuffs. But in time i would eventually do. As of now this is it...

Linkin Park- One Step Closer

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
You'll find that out anyway
Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
Shut up, I'm about to break!

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break (more)

Creed - What if

Eto mega sound trip kasi nakaka-inis eh! Badtrip kasi ako now...

bagsakan by parokya ni edgar feat. francis m and gloc-9

Just saw this new video! Sound trip eh!

Mitsubishi Adventure 2004 Commercial

Nakaka-alis pa itong isa! CooL talaga!

Rebisco BUDDY Parokya Ni Edgar

hehehe! ang kukulit talaga nila... CooL!

PAROKYA NI EDGAR NESCAFE COMMERCIAL

new commercial ng parokya ni edgar... yehey! cool!!!

POCONO, PA

Lance
The Trolley ride

L-R: Kuya JV, Papa JJ, Wendell and Lance

Water falls at the mini golf course

Lunch at Thai Thani

The park

Muah!

The food at Lee Tokyo Steakhouse

Our chef who reminds me of someone but i can't remember who it was.

Gladys posing

"Anak this is how you do it." Inay shows Lance

Showing off my skills at paint ball.

"Look Lance, watch and learn." daddy shows Lance

"Go fro gold Mel!"

Posing fro the camera!

June 30 - July 1, 2007. We (my cousins and friends) went to Pocono, PA for some R & R. Although Ian and Ian wasn't there still i enjoyed the weekend. on our first day we had the Trolley tour and had lunch at a thailand restaurant. Then they went rafting/canoing while i stay at the park to wait for them since i wasn't allowed to since i am pregnant (8 months). I was able to people watch and enjoy my solitude thinking of stuffs going on in my life and how close i am to getting to the finish line (giving birth!) which makes me excited at the thought of it and a little scared at the same time. After we check in at the knights inn motel/hotel, that wasn't really bad since we were going to stay overnite.

2nd day we had breakfast and went to the flea market. I wasn't able to buy anything and was a little disappointed. Anyway after they went riding the go kart and again can't join them. But we did some paint ball and archery which was really cool. After which we went straight to the target shooting but since i was riding in another car with our friend Joanna who had her nephews with her, we had lunch as they went ahead to the target shooting. When we finally got at the target shooting again i wasn't allowed together with my favorite nephew Lance to go inside. Next stop was the waterpark at Camel Beach though it wasn't really a beach in the middle of the mountain but mostly pools. There's a lot of rides and fun stuffs to do. The place was really cool and although it was kind of cold still we enjoyed the kid's pool and the wave pool. Too bad i wasn't able to buy souvenirs from the shops there. Didn't have enought time. Anyway i will posting some photos and will make sure to post more next time.

Billie Myers - Kiss The Rain

love,love ,love the song!!!

THE POEM

Gistening eyes;Steadly beating heart

Darts making hearts fall apart.

Every passing second,the same thoughts run through my head

My heart put out on a fine piece of thread.

Brace myself,promising not to cry,praying for the pain to finally die.

Shall every word,every thought;every dream decieve me?

All the pain unintentionally caused

That all our memories someday fade.

HI guys just wanting to share with you this poem that my good friend daena made (but then again without permission, I hope it's ok with her!!!) Anyway hope everyone has a good start of the week. Catch you guys later.

Way Back Into Love (Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore)

I've been living with a shadow overhead 


I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I've been lonely for so long 


Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on 


I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away 


Just in case I ever need em again someday 


I've been setting aside time 


To clear a little space in the corners of my mind 



All I want to do is find a way back into love 


I can't make it through without a way back into love 
Oh oh oh 



I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine 


I've been searching but I just don't see the signs 


I know that it's out there 


There's got to be something for my soul somewhere 



I've been looking for someone to shed some light 


Not just somebody just to get me throught the night 


I could use some direction 


And I'm open to your suggestions 



All I want to do is find a way back into love 


I can't make it through without a way back into love 


And if I open my heart again 


I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end 



There are moments when I don't know if it's real 


Or if anybody feels the way I feel 


I need inspiration 


Not just another negotiation 



All I want to do is find a way back into love 


I can't make it through without a way back into love 


And if I open my heart to you 


I'm hoping you'll show me what to do 


And if you help me to start again 


You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Way Back Into Love (full version)

From the movie Music and Lyrics. I love the song!

My SURPRISE BABY SHOWER June 2, 2007

The whole gang
Drinking baby bottle contest

The winners ( Sarah and Mel)

Balloon contest arts

Cathy and Me

Wendell, Berna and Me

Lance, Mel, Me and Kuya JV

Theye, papa JJ and Me

Gladys and Me

Kid Rock Featuring Sheryl Crow

Nice song!!!

Reality Bites (1994)

"Hi.
I was wondering if I could talk to you for a minute...
before you go.
See, the thing is that, um...
Well...
my dad died.
Oh, god, Troy. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
No. It...
What happened was that, um...
I kind of got this arcane glimpse at the universe.
And the best thing that I can say about that is...
I don't know. I...
I have this... this planet of regret...
sitting on my shoulders.
And you have no idea how much I wish that I could go back...
to that morning after we made love...
and do everything different.
But I know that I can't, so...
I thought that I would come here and tell you something.
And what I wanted to tell you...
was that I love you...
and, uh... just wanted to make sure that that was clear...
so that there wasn't any confusion.
Um...
So, anyway, uh...
Where are you going?
I was going to look for you.
What for?
Just... wanted to see if you were OK.
Well, I had a shitty week, you know." (more)

Reality Bites Troy/Lelaina Sleep Together

My favorite Scen from Reality Bites

Reality Bites (1994)

i love this scene from reality bites and Ethan Hawke really sings!

Laley - I'll Be Okay

I love this song!!! Lucas is so cute!

AGAINST ALL ODD, am I?

I used to think that this co-worker of mine was cool not until last Friday when he did the lowest of all action. That is to reveal secrets that only a few of us know and reveal it to the person we all hate. What i don't understand is how can he spill it to her when he was one of the first who hates this person and he was the one who usually talks behind her back. He keeps telling us how she's so stupid and how he dislikes her. Then in just a snap of a finger he says everything to her.

What is this all about? The thing that pisses me off was when the girl confronted me it was like i was the only one who dislikes her. She even denied the fact that they were talking on the phone when the truth was he opened up to me about it. He even confided in me about how she ask him to go up to her room twice. I'm beginning to think that he likes her and that what we've all talk about asking her out and everything was true in his mind. It wasn't just a joke that he plans.

How can i trust anyone like him since he betrayed me. He didn't even thought about me talking to his girlfriend about all this. Such a numskull! He was crazy to think that he can just walk away from what he did. I don't think that he can save the friendship between us. I already erased him in my phonebook. He doesn't exist anymore.

I just couldn't help myself today and i just had to write it down. Don't worry guys i will be okay. My baby will be okay too....