EXPECTATIONS

"I just think that sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." Jessie Sammler (Once and Again)

It's my brother's birthday and the weirdest thing about it is that we're both the same age for a month. Yez for a whole month!!! The age differnce is just 11 months can't you believe that? When the doctor told my dad to come back after two years she meant it but my parents came back after two months. By next month i would be a year older and maybe wiser. I don't really care about me growing old but the only thing that matters is how i live my life, right? Every year i look forward for something different in my life and now i do have something. BUT there's something that i would really wished for and hoping it would fianlly come true.....

If ever that certain someone would read this one i do hope he/she realizes my wish for my birthday, i don't need no gifts but if you have one for me then thanks a lot..... BUT this wish i have i do hope to finally get it.... I am not sure if it would eventually happen but if it does then everything is good with me. BUT if it doesn't then it's time to give you the TALK....

Enough of my crazy thoughts........ what else is new with me? Got to watch Dawson's Creek this morning and this episode wiht a certain line made my day besides being with my boyfriend (hehehe!!) Dawson was talking to a fortune teller and he was talking about Joey. "How come i keep losing her?" and the fortune teller says "You didn't lose her, what was once lost can be found." referring to Joey. Talking about losing something, i thought i have lost that feeling of being loved but guess again i didn't. I was so negative about certain things in my life that i've forgotten that i should be looking for the brighterside of life. Guess being rejected so many times you feel numbed after a while forgetting to love yourself. That was a phase i was going through up til now. Well now it's a different story but there are still some challenges in my life. Trials that come my way and that's part of the choices i made.

I do hope that this year would be different, still looking forward for new and brighter tomorrows. Still wanting to do a lot of things that i haven't done. Well that's it for now........ have a good week!!!!!!!