BREAKING THE HABIT

Breaking The Habit
Linkin Park
Memories consume like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume,
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight...

Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more, than any time before
I have no options left again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confuse

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight…

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight...

The song goes on and on in my head as i write now.... I just had to make a change of heart cause deep down i know i'm a good person but for whatever reason there's some people who thinks that i have a bad attitude. It just takes me while to accept wholeheartedly some situations or the people i am involved with like my boyfriend Ian ex-girlfriend as of this writing i am ready to deal with it. I should be the one to have better understanding of everything. Should i make the first move or should i wait and see what happens next? Well let's wait and see what happens next...